A New Chapter

As 2015 is coming to an end and we are welcoming 2016, I do not want to start this upcoming new year with any form of negativity at all. I want to let it all out and just let it go. I want to be in peace although inner peace is tough to attain.

A few things have took place this year that I am in a way thankful for. I am thankful as to me they are life lessons that I have learnt from.

This picture above makes me wish that things can go back to how they were 2 or even 3 years ago. But that's life. We make mistakes. We learn from it and the people around us, their reactions, we accept them, deal with them, try to convince them to give us another chance and we hold on to that. Some nights I wish I could go back in life, not to change shit, just to feel a couple things twice. But then again, I like that life is a progress, it keeps you moving forward.

Recently things happened, my best friend's parents accepted me and even allowed me to be his friend. It was not that simple and a lot of things took place before that for it to even happened. Honestly, Dalan even thought I would just leave him and throw our friendship away. Here's the thing, "best friend" is not just words, it's a bond. We promised to have each other's back no matter what and whatever that had taken place, already did. It is time to forgive, forget, move on and be there for each other.

The whole thing with Sakthiish and all, it has been more than a year since the whole problem and I still do beat myself about it every single day of my life. I have never felt more sorry or guilty for what I've done. I am happy to know that you're doing better and only hope that you'll be getting better and happier with life and your loved ones. Even if you want to have nothing to do with me, at least know that in dire need, you still have the NiggAPACHE for you.

The most recent issue I encountered was with Sharlini. I rather not elaborate on the issue here. The NiggAPACHE knows about it and that's all there's needed to know. All I can say is there's a thing, family always forgives and accepts, if that doesn't happen, they weren't your family to start off with, even though you may think of them as yours as certain things in life are one sided.

I was told by a good friend of mine that certain people treat others as disposable objects. I could not agree more to this statement. At a point of time, well, up till a week ago, I was having a mentality that  I will do my very best to hold on to everyone and even the ones who seem to be leaving. But after a while I thought about things and told myself, I am no longer going to be forcing anyone anymore. After things were said to me... I just realized that some people will never change.

If all you've done is to show them gratitude and did your best to make them happy and all you do is speak highly about them, and what they do is, talk behind your back constantly, never ever felt appreciated, is never going to forgive, and is going to keep on harping on your mistakes instead of thinking about the few good things you've done, you can't do anything.

It's been more than a year, I am tired of crying myself to sleep every night, I am tired of hurting myself, I am tired of all these that instead of hurting myself anymore, I should start by slowly forgiving myself. It'll be really hard but if I can't do that, the least I could do is to learn to look past it.

If you are reading this Sharlini, then know that I'll still be here for you no matter what. As long as you need me or want me, I'll be here for you.

I used to think that I'll always be here till you really had enough of me and want me out for good. Till then, I can't and won't just succumb to losing you. But now that I know that you want me out for good, I will respect your decision and just back off. Since it makes you happy, I'll at least do that. The least I could do is to make you happy, so if me being out of your life is what you want, you'll have it. No more bugging from me, I promise.

I won't disturb you with asking you out or wanting to spend time with you. I will do my best to not let ties get cut or friendships ending. If replacing is going to happen, so be it. And in your case, it surely has been done.

All I ever ask of you is to think of the guys. The guys who had did you nothing but good and who has been there for you. At least keep them in your life. Especially one guy in particular, he is so nice and has been through so many of your tough times which apparently I was the cause for. He deserves nothing but the best so the least you could do is to treasure him and not replace him. I am sure you know that I am talking about Vinod.

I know you're a nice person and you would not have the heart to do it. And it's nice to see you talking to the others at least.

 I love you so much and care for you, Aby, Ashley, Cookie and your fam a whole lot. But I guess, since I am supposed to be out of your life for good, I should leave them alone too as it would not be right. All I can say is, thank you. For the 2 years + of friendships, and the past 9 months of welcoming me. Maybe one day, you'll find somewhere in your heart to forgive and accept me. If not, it's fine.

To me, you'll always be the girl whom I was friends with, and a sister with for a point of time at least. Be happy. If there's anything at all, I am here. If not, it's as if I am non-existent. I hope you and your family finds happiness and are just bonded and celebrating each other's company along with your new addition, brownie. Have fun with the guys, your friends and your loved ones.


If one thing this year, and especially these past few weeks has taught me, it is to treasure the ones that are here, appreciate the ones who were there. Be there for your loved ones and be thankful for all the times they were there for you. Make them happy, but don't lose your happiness in the process.

Thank them. love them, cherish them. If they really want to go, this time round, I won't stop. I'll wish them all the best and nothing but happiness. This goes for anyone in my life. If I am such a burden, I apologize. This time, I won't hold on to y'all. Y'all are free to go.


I wanted to end this blog with something really personal to me. This last bit is for myself to read, years down the road and feel proud of myself.

When I was 16, an incident occurred to be which made me have PTSD (Post Traumatic Stress Disorder). After a while, without me knowing I had depression.

I know what will you be thinking. Hey, everybody has it right? Once in a while and so on. How I wish, mine was as such. The depression that I had only gotten worse over the years. I refused to admit that I had it as I choose to think that I was a pretty happy girl. All those nights of having those breakdowns, meltdowns, panic attacks. Those weren't just what I thought as normal.

I hid it from everyone that I knew. I went to the doctor, and let's say I had been on anti-depressants for quite a while. Yea, it's funny thinking about it now. That a girl like me who HATES taking medications, has to rely on these medicines. But that was how I got through it. That was the only way I could carry on with another day in my life. 

So many nights I've done stupid things. But here's the thing. I had utterly no control over what I did. I just beat myself down with so many harsh words, I think of every single wrong thing I've done as a kid up till now. I think of all those times I've hurt people and I felt so worthless. I felt like I was nothing and I was honestly better of dead, as then, I would at least not burden people anymore. I hated the sight of myself. I've sat at the edge of the highest places I could find and just contemplating.

I thought that my family would be better off without me. I thought that the NiggAPACHE would be back to how it was before I came into their lives and ruined it for them.

A month back.. unknowingly without having any form of self control, I once again was in possession of a penknife. I was trying so hard to stop myself. If only I could explain what went through me, how I felt at that moment. It was so horrible. The pills did not help one bit. I managed to not cut my neck but slit my wrist instead. Looking at the scar now, I'm honestly ashamed of myself. 

This depression got so bad when I was with my family, when I had the problem with Sakthiish, when I felt unwanted by the group, when I thought Suraj was going to leave the NiggAPACHE, when I moved out, when I was picked on in school, when Sharlini does not want me in her life anymore. These are just some of the things. I do not want to go into details and stir up horribly painful memories. 

All I can say now is that I am better. I am no longer on medication. I was once told, "it's all in the mind, Mind over matter." It is true, however it is really tough but not impossible at all. 

Without knowing my issues, Dalan, you've helped me in so many ways. You've been the bestest friend anyone could have ever asked for. Without knowing all these, the NiggAPACHE has been there for me and I sincerely can't thank y'all enough. 

I hate to say this. But I feel my relationship with my family is much better and stronger especially since I've moved out. I still do miss y'all though.


Days, Weeks, Months, Years, Decades later when I chance upon this blog post, I will think of the following few things. 

1. I was once a part of this amazing group called The NiggAPACE (I sure as hell wish I would still be a part of y'all)

2. I can only hope that The NiggAPACHE would have expanded by then, in a good way. 

3. I love my family to bits and want y'all to be truly happy.

4. I was once close to this girl called Sharlini and her family. And she was like a sister to me. Although all those good times have ended, I will forever remember and replay them and wish her and her family happiness.

5. I actually overcame my years of depression and this time around, I will not allow myself to succumb to being a prey to that. No matter how hard things get, always remember that, there is someone out there who has it tougher than you and who is doing way better. If they can overcome their problems, so can you.

6. Never would I have ever imagined to have found a best friend from the opposite gender especially due to past experiences. But I have never been more blessed to be able to have you, Dalan, in my life. You are the kind of best friend that I wish everyone had a chance to meet and be with in their lives. Just remember, we've always got each others backs ok?

7. Appreciate the little things you have in life and be thankful to the people who still stick by you after shit has happened. Be really grateful for them and treasure them for life. 

8. Nothing lasts forever. This includes relationships. But we can always make it a point to try make it last for as long as we can. When someone has their ego sky high, you apologize. Even if it wasn't your fault. If someone never is the one who makes the first move, you go ahead. You ask for forgiveness especially if you value that person. For someone who shows to you that they are fine with you but constantly talks behind your back about things they'll never have courage to say to your face, so be it. Whatever is it, NEVER EVER EVER stoop so low as to do something you'll never be proud of.

9. Life is short. It is all about forgiving and forgetting. Do not live life with regrets, hatred, grudges. Move on. It sure as hell will be hard. But you have to know that you're stronger than you think. You're stronger than you know. Why you ask? Because, you'll never really know how strong you are until being strong is the only option left for you. Don't cling on and latch on. Do that, but eventually you have to learn to let go. If people do not want you in their lives, and you've fought long and hard for it, know where you stand. "If life can remove someone you never dreamed of losing, it can replace them with someone you never dreamt of having." This is really true. We are just a tiny part of this huge planet. We have yet to meet half the people in our lives. Fret not. People come, people go. The right ones will stay. And the right ones are always family. Be it blood related or not.

10. Smile! You don't own all of the problems in the world. I'll be turning 20 in less than a month. In a decade's time, I'll be 30. When I have kids, I don't only want to tell them sad stories. In my almost 20 years in this world, I've been through so much that I felt they were blessings or lessons. I could'n't be more thankful for the opportunities I have been given. I am here to cherish what I already have lived, and to make more beautiful memories from now on with my loved ones. 

With these 10 take-aways, I hope it has not only helped me but also the person reading this. Do know something...

IF YOU ARE READING THIS, I THINK YOU'RE AMAZING. IF NO ONE ELSE THINKS SO, AT LEAST KNOW THAT OUT OF 7 BILLION PEOPLE IN THIS WORLD, YOU HAVE AT LEAST 2 PEOPLE WHO THINKS YOU ARE AWESOME! THE FIRST BEING ME. THE SECOND, HAS TO BE YOU. DON'T DOUBT YOURSELF. YOU'RE PERFECT JUST THE WAY YOU ARE. NOW, SMILE!

Well, this would be my last post of 2015. Once again thank you to everyone who actually read my blogs. I still am in shock that a nobody like me has over 10,600+ views. It is truly heartwarming. 

People will now know who the Mazlans are and even the NiggAPACHE. And this will even be a reminder for myself in the future if I ever for a second forget what to be thankful for. 

Now, it's time to wish you my readers, a very HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Don't start on all those crappy resolutions. You don't have to set goals only at the start of the year but have a big goal in mind and many mini goals along the way to achieve it. All the best and I am sure if you put your heart into it, you're bound to achieve it. Just like Fort Minor sang:

10% Luck

20% Skill

15% Concentrated Power of Will,

5% Pleasure,

50% Pain,

and 100% Reason to Remember the Name.

With this, have an enjoyable and memorable New Year with your loved ones. Party hard and HAVE FUN!!

It is going to be 2016! 

P.S: Just realized I'll be turning 20 on the 16th. WHAT?! hahaha

Till next time, next year, 

<May 2016 be a year filled with hope, happiness, endless possibilities, love, and all things good>


xoxo

Farhana Mazlan

IT'S A FESTIVE DECEMBER

Well brace yourselves for this is gonna be one heck of a ride!

The amount of pictures is too damn high! But, I love it!

Years later, I can look back and say, look at all that has happened and all that I had been through!

To start of...

Dalan's Birthday

You have no idea how happy I am that I can finally can address Dalan by his name on my blog posts.

I am so thankful and blessed for this.

Happy Birthday, my dear best friend. I have blogged about you along with the other but it seems compared to the rest, I had to always conceal your name as to not spark up family issues. I am so blessed we surpass that!

3 years of knowing you, a year of simple friendship, 2 years of this best friend bond that I intend to keep and treasure for the rest of my life. I promise to always have your back no matter what okay? So be happy and if you're down for anything at all, I'm just a phone call or a text away. 

Other than all the gifts, here's to your house celebration of your PARTAY that I seriously was elated I could be a part of!!!!

The clappin crew

 Always had and always will have a soft spot for grandmas

and yours is ADORABLE!

Christmas Wonderland

Christmas Wonderland, Singapore’s biggest yuletide fair, was created to enthrall visitors with a combination of magnificent sculptures of light and charming festive markets alongside carnival games.

Back for its second year, Christmas Wonderland at Gardens by the Bay 2015 spans 35,000 square metres, across four main areas: the magnificent Luminarie light sculptures which begin at the Golden Garden and extend throughout the festival site; the Festive Market at the Supertree Grove; the Fairground near The Meadow; and the Christmas Toyland floral display in the Flower Dome.

Christmas Wonderland is for everyone – young and old, lovers and friends. The Garden lights up in full glory when night falls, and it is a picturesque sight that is nothing short of stunning. It is little wonder everyone is putting this on their Christmas to-do list.

The moment I found out about this, I just knew that I HAD TO GO! 

But before this...

Kombi Rocks

What is Kombi Rocks you ask? Well, I'll let the picture below do the talking.

Wanted to dress for the occasion. Vintage with a modern twist!

The food was great especially the FRIES & LAVA CAKE!

It was raining on the way there, thank heavens it stopped so at least I was able to take a picture with this beautiful Kombi. I swear, this is the kinda van I sometimes picture us, the NiggAPACHE having road trips in. Kinda like the Scooby Doo vibe.

Up next...

Bath & Body Works

To me, although they are pretty pricey, they do have THE MOST AMAZEBALLS SMELLING ITEMS! Be it shower gels, or lotions (what I usually go for).

It is the Christmas season, as such there were a bunch of new fragrances launched. I bought 2. Firstly, Vanilla Bean Noel and next, Sugarplum Dream. They both smell oh so heavenly. I am still using my Velvet Sugar one. Once that is finished, I shall start to smell like sweet sweet vanilla! Haha

Laduree

The BEST place out there around the world to get macaroons is none other than Paris. Paris is known for the very famous Laduree. It tastes like perfection melting in your mouth. When Laduree opens up in Singapore, that would obviously be the place to go buy macaroon when you are craving it, have the money, or introducing someone who is a first timer to that place.

By far, my favorite Christmas tree for 2015. As much as I LOVE snowflakes, lights, and sparkly things, a Christmas tree made out of Macaroons in pastel colors is hard to top! 

A tree made out of bells in Orchard

I wanna be a reindeer too!

Now for the grand reveal of Christmas Wonderland at Gardens By The Bay!

Here's a few things to look out for.

1. Luminarie - This is the amazing lights they had built all over the flower domes and there'll be certain timings where there'll be a light show and that's called Garden Rhapsody. There'll be Christmas songs playing in the background and it is magical when you see the light show.

2. Spiegeltent - This would be a great place to take your loved ones to dine. I did not go here due to the price but it looked fancy from outside when I was there and even fancier when I see the interior from pictures online.

3. Ice palace. Once again I did not head here as it was a large sum of money to pay and I rather just ice skate at JCube. Moreover, the interior is meant for kids. However, the outside looked so spectacular, I did take a couple of shots.

4. Santa's Cottage

5. Christmas Toyland

Both 4 & 5 I did not go to as in was located in the domes. This would mean that you had to pay the standard entrance fee which is $28 for adults, if I'm not wrong. Both places, you'll have to pay to enter and is meant for you to spend when you're in there.

For example, Christmas Toyland has so many great toys to buy as gifts, but that is if you'd prefer going there to get your Christmas gift. If you have someone paying for you, then sure, go ahead, I had to pay for all these which is why, I opted to not go, although I did end up spending on 2 things, the carnival game - one in particular and also some food. But, it was still much more worthy. 

6. AIA Trick Art - I wanted to get my picture taken here but it kept raining on and off. Since it was an open space, when it rained, they cordoned off the area. When it stopped, the queue grew so immense. 

7. Rides - There were a few main ones like the Carousel, Swinging Chairs, Helter Skelter Slide, Christmas Train. I loved the carousel and got my picture taken outside of it as it costs a hefty 8-10 bucks for a ride. I never did taught Uncle Ringo would be this pricey,

8. Carnival Games - Basketball Extreme   |   Block Buster   |   Can Smash 1   |   Lobster Pot 1   |   Roll-a-ball   |   Stick a Card

These were the games and the one I spent most time and money on was Can Smash 1. It was the one where tins would be stacked in a pyramid form and you had to break it in 3 throws. If it is just in one throw and all cans fall and roll off, you get the grand prize. Holy! It costed $4 for one game, which is 3 tries to knock 'em all off!

9. Blizzard Time at the Spalliera & Fun with Bubbles at The Fairground. At certain times there will be bubbles being ejected from a machine and also "snow" which was actually soap being blasted out from machines. As I already knew the programme line up, I was able to experience all of it! It was so enchanting.

10. Christmas Carols. There are Christmas Carolers nestled in the Supertree Grove's gazebo. Managed to catch them and it was so nice and a cozy, homey feel after experiencing Blizzard Time to hear them sing so harmoniously. Truly brought out the Christmas spirit!

9 inch Hotdog! half with Cheese, half with Satay Sauce

The tokens for the games / rides

When Cotton Candy is PINK and selling for $2... you go get it!

The modern Santa: On his Hover Board

There was a couple who did their wedding shoot here. Although it was for 10 mins or so only. Her dress is pale pink and it's all ruffly and poofy. What's not to love?!

My fav: The entrace

Samarpanam

Finally decided to try my Baby Bliss hair curler and it worked wonders! Been a long time since I dressed up for an event. Felt nice to do so.

Vishnu!

Sara!!!!

Gosh! Honestly, this show was so good! It was super funny & entertaining. Especially Sara! His acting was so on point that it was like watching the Indian actor Vijay on stage! We all are super impressed by your AMAZING performers and you've got the NiggAPACHE as not only your friends but your fans too!

Vishnu & Anush, y'all were such smooth dancers. Gaaaahhhh

I love you 3!!! #1 fan

Took a picture with two of the main people, the "dad" and "mum". The "mum" is still the coolest and the funniest!!! Singapore Poly's ICS, y'all pulled off a superb show! KUDOS!!

The real OG DON, giving the stage "fake" DON his Oscar trophy as his acting was that good!

Well, I must say, you truly deserved it Sara!

It was so nice to see this girl here, Sangary, the last I saw you was for Holi! I know we are both busy with school (by that I mean work) but we def have to hang out and catch up soon aites? Well, we exchanged numbers, now it's time for an outing! It was great seeing you again babe!

As always, there's no outing without a group shot! This time we have Sharveen, Siva, Shanan, Roshan, Prakash and so on. Good seeing your familiar faces and it was nice seeing new people.

Chalet

Our annual chalet. Well, we talked about this recently and we are not planning to make it annual anymore. In fact we have something better in store and I cannot wait for that to happen.

The guys still had their obsession with Star Wars. 

In specific, this quote!

So we decided to do a Millennium Falcon Spaceship inspired shape formed by Hershey Pies.

Yup, it was pretty late but we celebrated Dalan's birthday only here! Well Happy Birthday you lil Mofo! Hoped you liked the simple celebration along with the gifts from everyone.

Well, thanks to your birthday, I got to go on a cycling trip with Ari & Suraj. I mean DAYUM you guys! Y'all are really super duper fast on wheels!!!

Don't worry, you have my blessings! Haha

Gifts from Sweden by DON!

My beautiful box / mini suitcase

THANK YOU VINOD!!!!

My turn to present the guys, their gifts - LED Gloves. Well it ain't that much but, I'm glad at least some cool pictures and videos could come outta it and y'all seem to like it. At least I think y'all do. hehe

Well, they're all yours! Don't do naughty things with them... 

*Gives CZY the look*

When the DonAPACHE cycled off for a bit, we had time to kill. I brought a box of dares from last year's chalet just in case we needed to kill time. Well, it did came handy. We ended up playing for a bit and it sure as hell was funny especially seeing Fariz & Vishnu... well what happens at the chalet, stays at the chalet

huehuehue

Story Time - All of us children had to listen to our Dad, DON, in recounting the Good Old Days in Sweden. 

Happy Birthday to you Vinod. Epic Roulette ;)

I gave Vinod 2 things for his birthday. A book (not gonna explain it in detail, it's between the author and the reader and whoever the reader lets to view) and a game, which is what you see above. 

After an unforgettable, memory filled night,

On our way home

Most swaggalicious sleepers

Vinod's Bday

It was supposed to be an outdoors Karaoke, due to time constraints we could not make it happen and we decided to bring Karaoke home. It was sure as hell fun & funny seeing you guys sing. Suraj as Speedy Sean Paul, Fariz as heavy metal Gabriella and the fact that we went High School Musical for just that one song "We're All In This Together". We were all soooo bad that we are perfect for Karaoke.

Maybe one day we can actually book a room outside and let loose! Vinod, I still can't believe you are not familiar with High School Musical! What happened to childhood?!

What better way for a cake then Pizza? I mean, Pizza is bae!

Getting impatient cuz they won't start eating, so I

was trying to steal a bite hehe

Awwwww! The NiggAPACHE now pronounce you, Man & Wife

Thank you CZY for being the BEST tailor I know. I wore my high waisted jeans and it had suspenders. It snapped and it was just jeans! This amazing guy allowed me to have suspenders again! Thank you!!!

And in the meantime, I had to be in his home pants. Comfy still hahaha

The last NiggAPACHE shirt for the group! Yay! All of us has one now. :')

We all MOST DEFINITELY MUST wear it one day, for one RANDOM outing! The group and solo shots would look fantastic!

Sharveen's Bday

Dalan wanted to get Sharveen Nike shoes for his birthday. Not a pair but 2. One came from Kallang Wave Mall, so since I worked under Sport Singapore, I do have my discount. So I could help out. For the other pair, let's just say one day after work, we went hunting around Singapore for the perfect one. 

The perks of having your best friend work near you, is that you can go shopping together after that! Although this was birthday shopping! We still had a bit of time after purchasing both pair and since we were already near, I suggested making a quick stop at Orchard for one thing... MEGAROON! 

We finally had that and of course managed camwhoring here and there. Although, the decorations were not as fabulous as I thought it would be!

This place has a 22 dollar Ferrero Rocher and it was the size of both my hands cupped or maybe even bigger!

Yup, Perfect season to be in stockings!

While we were eating our Megaroon, there were Christmas Carolers!

Belgian Chocolate mmmmmm

Too bad the macaroon biscuit had no flavor. It was only the color of a vanilla flavored one but tasted like plain biscuit. Now you see why I say, go to Laduree for macaroons? But come on... this is a MEGAROON!

After all, Dalan's not only my best friend but my food buddy! Other than him LOVING sauces & me HATING them (exception: Black pepper, curry, cajun), we are pretty similar with our tastebuds. If I ever go into detail how we both eat our sandwiches or order Nasi Lemak, it'll FREAK you out!

Well, there's still so many food places we gotta go to and explore! One of it is definitely Adam's Road and I can't wait to go with the guys. Let that be our pit stop somewhere in 2016 ouhk?

And now to...

Sharveen's 17th

My personal gift for him, knowing that he loves Old Chang Kee a lot, was a 3-tier-stand filled with Old Chang Kee! 

P.S: Sharveen's Birthday was celebrated in the evening / night, right after Vinod's daytime celebration.

Yup! How cool is that?! Having a log cake for your birthday! Well, the day after that is Christmas anyway! Highly appropriate! Might I add, Santa was wearing a PINK outfit & hat here!

We had to make sure Vinod ate, so we all served DON food before he had to rush off! You are The DON after all and NO ONE should come for a party and leave without 3 things. Camwhoring. Eating. And... having a blast!

My suspenders can work again!!!! Love ya CZY!

Still didn't managed to get Dalan's grandma free. She's always busying herself with things to do and she's so shy. The next time I see you, I'll make sure you at least tell me a story. Hearing a recount of an elderly's life is truly a heartwarming thing and I wanna hear all about your life!!!

The food was really delicious! Much loves for like.. EVERYTHING!!!!!! 

Gaaaahhhh! Home cooked meals are the best after all!

The upsized clapping crew with new members like Aideel & Suraj! We missed you here Vishnu but you were nicely whacking food at your Christmas Eve Dinner party! Haha, so you didn't miss that much... I think ;P

Atlas! The shoes!!!! And after giving everybody birthday cards for the past 2 years and not giving Sharveen one, you finally get yours! I really hope you like, although you may wanna kill me for giving you all those "awards" for, well you know. HAHA

MANDATORY GROUP SELFIE!

Once again, Happy Birthday Dalan, Vinod & Sharveen!!!

Christmas

25.Dec.2015. 

This Christmas was supposed to be an intimate family gathering along with my aunt, I call her Maami. 

Poor Maami was admitted at SGH and we knew we had to take the party to her. I dressed up, all prepped for Christmas. Fuzzy white top, Fuzzy bunny hairband and so on. There was even Christmas Carolers at the ward.

Just because she is in the hospital, doesn't mean she had to be sad. After all, no one should ever feel sad on Christmas or spend it alone. I went to visit her with Zizi and we spent hours talking till she slept a little!

I came back home and decided to go to Orchard again! My first time ever in Orchard on the actual Christmas day. It was crowded as hell but I saw beautiful things like a Swarovski tree and Tiffany & Co gift boxes.

26th, it was back to the hospital. Glad to know Maami is doing better and at least she's sleeping more!

Still dressing up in this season's colors. I feel like being festive so don't judge!

Thank you Zizi for the 9 bucks worth of Bengawan Solo breads. Maami actually slept so so much better and I was glad. They changed her ward and all and due to work on 28th, I will be going back only on New Year's Eve. 

I hope the next I visit you is when you are home and doing much better instead of the hospital. But if you are still in that horrible place, I pinky promise you I'll make it as lively as possible for you. You are truly an amazing woman and have done so much for so many generations of people like my Grandma, Mama, Zizi, Raihan, Myself and even the next generation like Zara and so on. But you wanna know something? 

The names I have listed are just a handful. You have done ALL of us a huge favor by being in our lives and taking care of us and nurturing us, teaching us life lessons. You've had your fair share of downs, troubles, heartaches. But I am sure God only give them because He knows you are strong enough to handle them. You are Maami. My Maami. Our Maami. 

I assure you in no time you'll be discharged and back to normal okay? Please rest well, eat up and drink up and stop scolding the nurses haha! Still so feisty! Not only me but all of us, will make sure that you are doing fine, getting better and you're happy! Promise us ah! Don't go back to your bad old habits and do start looking after yourself. Your body is a temple after all. You've got to worship it by treating it real right!

Rebonding Hair

27th is when I was finally going to rebond my hair again. Welp, it didn't happen. The hairstylist refused me, and told me to get a refund. I get it! My hair is curly and all. But nigga! You did not state nor specify in your groupon how curly is curly for you to accept right?

Well, thank heavens as least I'm going to get a refund. I managed to find another WAY BETTER one hopefully. This time I called to check. On the bright side, I'll be not only rebonding but getting my hair treated and cut at Vince Moda. Only downside, it is in 2016. Bright side, the second is better than nothing! 

As I am blogging now (Yeap, this is one hell of a lengthy one), I just realized if I do not include today, it's just 5 more days till New Year's! This also means it's 4 more days of using and finishing up my Foodfare vouchers!!! I shall not waste it! Plus it's free lunch with good company. Why not eh?

Just a matter of days till we bid farewell to 2015 and welcome 2016 with a warm embrace. 

Till next time

xoxo

A Christmas Lover,

Farhana Mazlan