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Older Sister..
A sister is a gift to the heart, a friend to the spirit, a golden thread to the meaning of life.
Fazilah, my older sister. The 1st friend I made in the world. When I was born, you were already there. Hugging me, protecting me, playing with me, making me your lil barbie your lil model, a mannequin where you'll try your clothes on me, you were my teacher, my guider..
Although many people say that your mum is the most important woman in your life, you are just as important as you nurtured me like a mother. I was so comfortable with you..I not only learnt subjects like Math or Science from you but life lessons to. You taught me how to wear a bra (that was pretty embarrassing)..>.< You taught me how to use my first pad and even my tampon when I was scared 11-year-old girl who got her period. You taught me the importance of family and building relationships. You said no matter what, no matter how much your friends especially your best friend will be with you now..your family is what that will stick with you throughout..through thick & thin till the very end.
I was very fond of you and looked up to you. You had the brains, the beauty, the body, the good character, the passion for doing things, the chic sense of style. You were practically a trendsetter. I only disliked the fact that I was always being compared to you. It is not your fault as you were a natural. A born leader, a winner , a champion. Yes I did not achieve as well as you have, but I am really happy at where I am now. I will continue to work hard, improve myself and be successful.
The thing that saddens me would be that you look down on me. You laugh at my mistakes, you tend to pin-point at everything that I do. I am also human..Human err. We make mistakes but the important thing would be learning from them and not repeating them.
You laughed at my grades..yes I am in RP now..but I aim to graduate with a really high and good GPA. Guess time will tell that. You made fun of my choice in companionship, my life partner. I do know that I am only 17. You have told me countless time that this is the age to enjoy and at the same time study. I am doing both just that to me, I do not want to be wasting my time with a guy or even have one-night stands with guys. That to me is sorta immoral. Call me old-fashioned or nerdy..I rather be called that then to be known notoriously as a whore or slut. I guess you'll know that Sakthiish is really the one in time to come. I am hoping he would be my life partner..and i wish that you would be more supportive of me.
I have supported you in whatever you do..sometimes i just want you take some time to think that although I am younger than you by 4 years, there might be some things that I say that make sense. Give me the chance too. I am your sister..sometimes you'd need some guidance too. I want to be there for you too. Know that, realize that an embrace that I am also growing up to be more mature to have the capabilities and potential that you thought I'd never possess. I am blossoming like what you'd use to say. One day the chrysalis will break and a beautiful butterfly will emerge. I may not be that butterfly yet..maybe I am still a caterpillar..but this caterpillar will not be a caterpillar forever.
Fazi starting to use a tudung..
Her head piece a shawl..mine a beanie..
Raya 2013
Fazilah, my older sister. The 1st friend I made in the world. When I was born, you were already there. Hugging me, protecting me, playing with me, making me your lil barbie your lil model, a mannequin where you'll try your clothes on me, you were my teacher, my guider..
Although many people say that your mum is the most important woman in your life, you are just as important as you nurtured me like a mother. I was so comfortable with you..I not only learnt subjects like Math or Science from you but life lessons to. You taught me how to wear a bra (that was pretty embarrassing)..>.< You taught me how to use my first pad and even my tampon when I was scared 11-year-old girl who got her period. You taught me the importance of family and building relationships. You said no matter what, no matter how much your friends especially your best friend will be with you now..your family is what that will stick with you throughout..through thick & thin till the very end.
I was very fond of you and looked up to you. You had the brains, the beauty, the body, the good character, the passion for doing things, the chic sense of style. You were practically a trendsetter. I only disliked the fact that I was always being compared to you. It is not your fault as you were a natural. A born leader, a winner , a champion. Yes I did not achieve as well as you have, but I am really happy at where I am now. I will continue to work hard, improve myself and be successful.
The thing that saddens me would be that you look down on me. You laugh at my mistakes, you tend to pin-point at everything that I do. I am also human..Human err. We make mistakes but the important thing would be learning from them and not repeating them.
You laughed at my grades..yes I am in RP now..but I aim to graduate with a really high and good GPA. Guess time will tell that. You made fun of my choice in companionship, my life partner. I do know that I am only 17. You have told me countless time that this is the age to enjoy and at the same time study. I am doing both just that to me, I do not want to be wasting my time with a guy or even have one-night stands with guys. That to me is sorta immoral. Call me old-fashioned or nerdy..I rather be called that then to be known notoriously as a whore or slut. I guess you'll know that Sakthiish is really the one in time to come. I am hoping he would be my life partner..and i wish that you would be more supportive of me.
I have supported you in whatever you do..sometimes i just want you take some time to think that although I am younger than you by 4 years, there might be some things that I say that make sense. Give me the chance too. I am your sister..sometimes you'd need some guidance too. I want to be there for you too. Know that, realize that an embrace that I am also growing up to be more mature to have the capabilities and potential that you thought I'd never possess. I am blossoming like what you'd use to say. One day the chrysalis will break and a beautiful butterfly will emerge. I may not be that butterfly yet..maybe I am still a caterpillar..but this caterpillar will not be a caterpillar forever.
Fazi starting to use a tudung..
Her head piece a shawl..mine a beanie..
Raya 2013
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