Photoshoot X TNPNF Top 25 X Adrenaline

PHOTOSHOOTS

I am not sure if you guys have heard about MM. MM stands for Model Mayhem and it a platform which is especially useful for freelance models. I recently did 2 shoots. One with a photographer called Neils which was a TFCD, and the other Patrick which was a paid photoshoot. 

I have yet to receive the pictures from Patrick, but I did receive the ones from Neils. I am only going to share 2 of the pictures. hehe

I simply adore the outfits and the second was is actually a fabric. They look simply gorgeous. 

Not going to talk much about this but instead hoping I'll be getting more job offers. In the mean time, I shall work on my poses and facial expression. I do not want to be deemed as a model with only one look. I would like to expand and become like a chameleon, have a whole range of versatility.

I am not elaborating as it's going to be 11, and I'll be talking more about the other 2 things in this blog which would take up much more time.

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The New Paper New Face 2014

Closed Door Auditions & Photoshoot

As you all know, I joined this years TNPNF. When I joined in 2012, I made it to the Top 50. I tried again this year with my new hairdo and all. It was nerve wrecking I tell you to be going through the whole process again.

While waiting with some of my friends like Mira, Tiara, Nicolle, Rina, I also made some new friends. I talked to 2 girls Jaya and Bridget. We all made it to the top 50 except Jaya so that was a little saddening. But that girl has lots of other modelling things awaiting her.

This year, they removed the age limit. During the walk-in auditions, there were young girls like 12 / 13, already auditioning and they carried themselves with so much confidence. When I was that young, I had utterly no self esteem. Even now, I doubt myself half the time and get nervous for everything.

There was a 2nd walk in and I was surprised, the group that had entered with me..NONE of us were asked any questions. I thought that means Good Bye, Sayonara, Adios Amigo! But apparently I was wrong.. ALL my friends and I made it!!! To the Top 25 that is.

This was during the walk-in audition

I found out from one of the girls that the bottom ticks meant approval, and I was stunned I had all 5 ticks.

Guess I impressed the judges..? But this isn't the end and there is NO ROOM to be too cocky.

This was during the closed-door auditions.

I didn't really camwhore with the other girls as y'all already know the state of my phone.. so yea. If I had somehow follow me, it would have been better.. but this was on a Saturday morning and I did not wanted to disturb anyone. Also, I want to keep in this on a low..until now as I am revealing this now only.

I was elated that I was featured in today's The New Paper. At the same time, I was happy that my face wasn't the most visible as I wasn't standing at the front.

Notice a familiar face? The young girl at the front with long curly hair and purplish shorts is none other than Singapore's very own legend's daughter! Yup, she is the 14 year old Iman. The oldest among us is my friend Agatha, who is a 26 and of a french descent. The tallest among us, is Diya. She is only 15 but stands at 188cm! That is really astounding. When I spoke to her, I told her how much she reminded me of Solange Knowles! These girls are all really gorgeous!!!

Today, was the photoshoot. I had to head over to SPH and had to be there by 9am!

Thank heavens I went early as the gates had some problem and Iman's mum drove us a HUGE round around the place.

I was the last girl to shoot. I made lots of convos with the fellow models..killed time while talking to the make up artistes and hair stylists, talked to the photographer after the shoot and one of the main people, Whee Teck, he was a really fun and funny guy to be around! There was music, and I was controlling the urge to dance a little.

I was really blessed that the people I worked with were really nice and I do hope I make it to the Top 20. The funny thing would be that, I thought this competition would be all about smiles..but during my shoot, the photographer wanted me to give more of a pouty look. I was like OoO!!!!

I did my best.. I know I could've done better. Well, now I just have to wait for a call on Wednesday. If I get the call, it means that I made it. If I don't get the call..it means, I should just be thankful with all that I have learned and experienced so far.

I managed to camwhore in the toilet a bit before my shoot..hehehe

Rinna got Nicolle and I to help her take pictures, we ended up camwhoring a little ourselves! HAHAHA

Rinna was the 2nd last one of the 9am batch to be shot and she actually was nice enough as she stayed back to not only leave with me but to take a few pics of some behind the scenes. Love you babe!

This past 2 days, I had been only getting 4 - 5 hours of sleep and I am fascinated at how I have not crashed fully! Maybe because I sleep in the afternoon for about 2 hours. God Knows..

Well, Fingers Kept Crossed for some good news! Top 20...

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Adrenaline 

It is a hormone secreted in response to stress and increases heart rate, pulse rate, and blood pressure, and raises the blood levels of glucose. It gives a person more energy and this is released in the body of a person who is feeling a strong emotion (such as excitement, fear, or anger).

Why am I even talking about this?

Here it goes..

I've been having really HORRIBLE mood swings and PMSing really BADLY for like the past 2 - 3 months during the time of the month.

As y'all know, I go for training for Muay Thai. Recently, in fact earlier on this week.. my mood fluctuated so bad that that my poor friend suffered A LOT from me. I felt faint and weak.. I got really sleepy..and the worst part, I just felt so down and broken that I could not stop crying.. I was balling my eyes out for hours! LITERALLY. 

I pitied Asswipe as he didn't have to go through all of this by dealing with me. 

So, girls out there.. if you know (if you don't, it's okay) that you are going to have heavy mood swings..spare a thought for the men around you. Be it your Dad, Uncle, Brother, Friend, Boyfriend and so on. Meet up ONLY if you know that they can handle you and actually make you feel better. If not, it's better to PMS alone. HAHA

Okay, this isn't the adrenaline part but okay..I'm getting there.

This week's Monday..something that may seem common to people actually happened to me for the VERY FIRST TIME! I, Farhana Mazlan, actually overslept! Yeap.. that happened. I was really shocked when I woke up at about 9+. How did I even sleep through my alarms. It happened again on Thurday but I still went for school as I would be marked late. But Monday.. I would've been marked partial.

I ended up meeting D and spending a day just killing some time. I have been given a lift or the more common term used "tompang" on a bike before. But Monday...boy was that different.

I am normally a girl who plans almost EVERYTHING like even when are my breaks, when to chill and all that. Outings are planned, events are planned, social gatherings are planned. I would like to go with the flow sometimes but I am so used to being organized and discipline. It isn't wrong but it takes away many fun elements from me. 

There is a saying that goes that "No One Looks Back On Their Life And Remembers The Nights Where They Had Plenty Of Sleep"..also another saying goes something like "The Best Things In Life Are Unplanned". 

 I cannot agree more! It is true like things like weddings and all are planned and memorable, even proposals and all that.. but certain things, the beauty is in the unexpected part.

Here's the link.. a very weird one.

When I was being tompang, at a point of time, we went downhill. It wasn't the most steep slope. It wasn't the most epic slope..but it was by far one of the best feelings! The wind was in my hair, my arms were outstretched, I was about to squeal but a random uncle jogging stopped me from doing so. HAHA

I am the Queen of Overthinking. But at that moment, for that mere 20 seconds or so.. I felt so light, so enlightened. It felt great! My adrenaline was pumping. And that was when I decided, I ain't gonna torture myself with too much planning. I am 18 for god's sake! Unlike most uncertain 18 year olds.. I know what I want to do wit my life, I know where I want to go, I know that I need to study and I plan my time for all of those..so why not leave some room to be an 18 year old?!

Why not once in a while do something really CRAZAY and EPIC and out of the blue? Why not go all YOLO although not to an extent that cray cray..but you get what I mean?

I am not going to sacrifice my future by wasting time on partying and all..but at the same time, I am never going to be 18 again! I am never going to get back the time I've lost. So why should I live my life with regrets? They say it's almost impossible to have the BEST of BOTH WORLDS. I can guarantee it is going to be tough. I didn't say that I will do stupid things during school and exams and flunk them. But I want to do stupid things, live my life as a teenager, as a youth..I want to remember more unplanned events since I am good with planning events.

This segment, goes out to all you teenagers out there who are worked up, stressed, cooped up. I totally feel you. I get you..I understand. We live in a country where education is everything. I am NOT telling y'all to not study. All I'm saying is, in the process of work and all, add some fun and play. Trust me, the fun and play will be happy if you plan and make time for it..and along the way of your planned activity, if epic unexpected things happen, embrace them! 

Live your life, smile a little more.

It's funny how a tompang down a hill can do so much to this mind of mind. What did I say..? I am an overthinker right? Haha

Ouh well, it's midnight and there's Micro Econs to kill and drag me to reality tomorrow. 

By the way, I've decided on something, I'm going to start cycling to school..took me a year plus, but I've decided.

Maybe my next post will be on my experience for the first session of the SOH Ambassador and let's hope good news after a phone call regarding TNPNF..

Goodnight!

And for those of you lucky people who are in secondary schools or JC, enjoy your Youth Day while you can!

xoxo

Farhana Mazlan